Wait

I've seen them.

The baby beds in the foster care center where over a hundred children reside right now.

Stuffed beyond capacity the care center is.

And from the pictures of families who've gone before, I've seen them.

The cribs that house 3 babies with a dividing wall between each one.

Three sections to the one unit of a bed.

And it's not that there is anything particularly terrible about them.

It's just that I can't stop imagining her there.

My daughter.

There, instead of here. At home. With her family.

I wonder what she's doing, what baby or early toddler phases she's going through that I'll never see.

And there are so many, so many babies there with families waiting on them here.

Families that are ready and willing to drop anything they're doing and fly to the ends of the earth at their own expense to bring those babies home, if only given permission that they could.

I've asked God, "Why?" many times. It just doesn't seem to make sense. What good could possibly come out of these delays? It is common knowledge that the more time a child spends in an orphanage the worse it is for them.

But then I study it, really looked at it, unlike all the times before.

The interaction between Jesus and His half-brothers in John 7:1-10 when they were telling Him to go to Judea for the Feast of Booths and verse 4, "show Yourself to the world." They wanted Him to go public with who He said He was right now, according to their timing. Verse 5-6b goes on, "For not even His brothers were believing Him. Jesus therefore said to them, 'My time is not yet at hand,"

If I'd been a half-sister of Jesus I'm afraid I'd have been doing the same thing. I mean if He was really the Messiah, why not go public with that info. sooner rather than later?

Would more people have been saved, healed, or converted if Jesus had began his public ministry sooner than age 30? He was crucified a mere three and a half years later.

But, God's timing is always perfect, even if it doesn't make sense to us. After all, God invented time.

Jesus knew it was not the right time! He was there when the universe was created. There was a divine plan that began unfolding from the very beginning of all time, and the plan would end with salvation for all who believed.

Without God we would have never been led to this adoption journey, without Him we could never have afforded it, never gotten through the paperwork, never endured this much waiting. I must trust Him with the rest of the story. I must focus on Him even more than her.

Psalm 27:14
Wait for the LORD; Be strong, and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the LORD.

Isaiah 40:31
Yet those who wait for the LORD Will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, They will run and not get tired, They will walk and not become weary.

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